So I did the think that all newbs do. Which is to take years to finally pursue a passion and then give up when their insecurities get in the way. I quit blogging for 2 months before even becoming a consistent blogger. I’ve summed it up below.
1. Image: I‘ve always been conscious of my weight/looks. I know I am beautiful and no one has ever said otherwise. I feel beautiful and am 100% confident in my skin in my real life. I mean I’m not a Victoria’s Secret model and don’t get paid to look like one so I’m good. I know I have some chubs to lose and am working on it. However, being confident in your looks when you look in the mirror (which, mind you, is hard enough) and on camera are two different beasts. It wasn’t until I started photographing myself for social media a ton that I noticed I didn’t look like other “successful bloggers and Instagramers.” Let’s me honest sex appeal and looks sell and I know image is something I need down if I want to be successful. I’m a medium Girl, not thin and not plus sized so I’ve always been confused as to how to “own” my body type. Media, ya know? It wasn’t until a friend called my bullshit and told me to be confident and own whatever I am that I decided not to hide behind this excuse. Does it make it any easier? Probs not, but it does get me blogging again for the bigger picture.
2. Competition/Saturation: I’m highly jealous of the bloggers and influencers that started 5–7 years ago. Before the industry blew up and became so competitive these bloggers were able to build a loyal audience that continues to grow in today’s fast paced social media world. With everyone starting a blog/brand to build businesses and or add a layer to an already successful business it’s almost impossible to not feel the heat. I always think: what makes me different? And when I make my list, I find 5 other people doing that. I have yet to process that what makes it unique is, well, me. I guess you have to be super consistent to process this and find your niche. Which brings me to my next point.
3. Time and Energy: There is a famous proverb that says, “if you try to catch two rabbits, you won’t catch either one.” Story of my life! Confession: I am HORRIBLE at time management. So much so that that is the ONLY thing keeping me from succeeding in all areas of my life. For a while I was sucking at my day job and being inconsistent with blogging. My mind was all over the place and I felt guilty for pursuing one and not the other. Well work 9–5:30 and then come home and work on your passion 7–9:30pm, right? Damn it sounds so easy, why is it so hard? But, no excuses. So right now I’m working on finding little life hacks to work more. For example, I’m writing this post on my phone on the train to downtown Atlanta with a friend in town for the weekend!
4. Belief: I have immense confidence in myself, but for some reason I don’t think I can achieve my goals. Funny thing is I know if I put in the work I can get to where I want to be, but I don’t see others and think “I can do it too.” I’m working on shortening the amount of time I spend in my head with negative self talk so I can do more.
5. Confusion: Honestly, I don’t know where my career will take me. I know I enjoy writing and working with people. And I know I need a change from my current job. Im in the process of applying to grad school cause I can’t put all my eggs in one basket with blogging. More importantly, applying to school RN feels like the right move. But what will that mean for blogging? Will the direction of my blog change? How will I mesh it all with “my brand.” So many questions and only time will tell. For now, I’m going to focus on the present and trust that my brand, if I choose to build one, will evolve with me.
There you have it. I’m being honest AF. So here’s what you can expect:
1. About three blog posts a week and almost daily posts on IG. Focusing on all social media platforms wasn’t serving me well, so IG it is for now. And maybe the occasional snap chat.
Have you ever quit a passion that took you a couple years to muster up the courage to pursue? How did you avoid burnout and get back to it?
Would love to know,
P.S: I am posting on here because my website is down and I am working with Bluehost to get it back up! However I will be cross-posting my blog posts on Medium as well as my blog 🙂